Let me share with you my experience......
I am writing this one for me… maybe you can take a piece of it too. I say that with love and permission. I was wondering why I was having a hard time then I remembered I told myself to be strong, don’t burden anyone, they can’t help you, they don’t understand you, if you don’t do then it won’t happen.
I give myself permission ya’ll. I give myself permission at this very moment to receive and allow.
I feel lied to at this very moment, so forgive my saltiness. No, I take that back. I am no longer apologizing for having emotions that are uncomfortable. I don’t know what’s worse holding in my emotions because I fear being misunderstood, and not helped or holding in my emotions, because I keep lying to myself saying I have to be this way or that way. I have to take care of it all or it won’t happen.
I give you permission to back off. I am talking to lies. I give myself permission to receive and allow.
*singing* "Smile baby smile you are doing better than you think, you are right where you are meant to be so don’t over think. Superman, Superwoman even you can get weak.. it’s okay to be human. It’s okay to have needs." Eugene King
Ironically in the midst of my many feelings and inter talk, the divine played this song on my playlist. I have not heard it in over a year so it was not in the mix. But for today it needed to be.
I give myself permission to receive sweet melodies that give me permission to ask. to learn, to receive, to allow.
Shit is not working ya’ll. I choose to give myself permission to be in the same seat I give others. I listen, I hear, I respect, I allow, I encourage, I support, I hug, I even cry with others. Today, I give myself permission to tell you, I didn’t allow that same experience for myself. I am not the only solution and never will I ever be, with all the brilliant stories inside of us I know I can gain from you too.
I give myself permission to trust you. I give myself permission to see you now. I give myself permission to take off all of the layers I have worn for decades with secrets, scars, hard times, embarrassment. I give myself permission to allow you in and recieve the beautiful things you have to offer.
*singing* "Smile baby smile you are doing better than you think, you are right where you are meant to be so don’t over think. Superman, Superwoman even you can get weak..it’s okay to be human. It’s okay to have needs." Eugene King-Smile
Signed- smiling